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Deciding to get Pregnant
I’ve discussed in an earlier post about my son’s birth, but I haven’t mentioned the journey I took that lead me to that point. Most people don’t know this, but I never wanted to have my own children. I wanted to adopt. I wanted the guarantee factor of having a child that looked like me. Or at least had the same color of skin. You see I grew up being darker than anyone in my family and because of this I felt different. I felt out of place. I felt like I didn’t belong, sometimes. Not that my family ever made me feel this way, they didn’t, but I made…
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We Need to Change Ourselves
You know sometimes you come across situations that you just can’t keep you mouth shut about. I have two situations that was just that! First up, a little girl and her father at the toy store. She was paying for her toys and didn’t have enough money. Her father had the nerve to scold this five year about not having enough. Saying crap like, “you should be ashamed of yourself for not knowing if you had enough before coming up to the register.” This little girl was humiliated and by her own father! Then her older sister came up and said “don’t worry sissy, I have some extra!” And handed…
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Hardest Decision of My Life: Becoming a SAHM
Making the decision to become a stay at home mom has been the hardest, but easiest decision of my life thus far. I always knew I didn’t want my children being raised by strangers, but I also knew I didn’t get multiple degrees to stay at home. So what do you do when your baby stops eating and sleeping at daycare? You write your resignation letter. I have been with my job for going on five and a half years. I have a management team that supports and cares about their employees and a working family that notice when you are out. I have a great shift where I get…
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Know Your Truth and Believe It
Have you ever looked in the mirror and thought to yourself as being ugly or having a “fat day”? We all have these days, especially women. This blog is to hopefully boost your self esteem and your personal thought about the image you see staring back at you. I grew up hearing more negative things about myself than positive, so it’s no surprise when you find out I grew up with low self esteem. Being told I was short, fat, ugly, stupid and that I wouldn’t amount to anything was a normal day in my household. And to think people thought I was this person’s favorite, most prized child. You…
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Know Your Worth
Ever thought you weren’t good enough? Ever looked in the mirror wondering how you got to this spot in your life? Ever questioned what your purpose on this planet was for. Thinking you’ll never be good enough or smart enough or pretty enough. Well guess what every person on this planet has had some kind of doubt or negative thought at least once in their life. No matter where you look, every person has something wrong with them, or at least that’s what they think. You may see this beautiful, strong person, but what they see in the mirror might be something completely different. Because we are not perfect, even…
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Shopping at Size 18
Did you know fat girls don’t like to dress pretty? Me either. I thought we all liked to look and feel pretty. But in today’s society I found out this weekend that my thoughts are all wrong. It all started when friends invited me to their weddings. One in the woods and one on the beach. Both casual weddings, not too fancy of a venue or a dress code to speak of, but instead they are the type the brides tell you, “dress to your comfort.” Well for me that means wearing a pretty dress, doing my hair and makeup and making an effort to be “pretty” for the day.…
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Self Image
Let’s talk about self image. I heard something the other day that broke my heart and I feel I needed to write about it. Okay so everyone knows I’m a huge fan of The Biggest Loser, so I wanted to share something one of the contestants said that broke my heart. Jillian Michaels asked why she was there, meaning on the show, and this woman’s answer just crushed me. She said she wanted to lose weight so her boyfriend will finally marry her. She went on to say that he “worries” about her weight and doesn’t want her to feel embarrassed at the wedding. And they can’t have kids until…
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We Need to Do Better
I read something today that just broke my heart. A woman referred to her two clients as “very plus size.” She wanted tips on how to photograph them like it’s any different than photographing a skinny woman! And the worst part is the shoot she’s doing is for two maternity shoots. This breaks my heart on so many levels. But mostly because as a plus size woman myself who just had a baby and maternity pictures done, I know first hand the insecurities that go along with your changing body. My biggest insecurity was that no one would even know I was pregnant, but instead think I just put on…
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Self Care
In the world we live in today it is so easy to forget about yourself and get caught up in being a mom, a wife, a friend, an employee and so many other titles that we give ourselves. But the one we are forgetting is being ourselves. I’m a firm believer of taking care of myself. When I met my husband I told him from the start that I’m a pampered woman but I made it very clear that I don’t need him to pamper me. I do just fine myself. You see ever since I started working I’ve gotten my hair, nails and toes done on a regular basis.…
