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I Cry
Before you tell me I’m doing a good job, you should know what really goes on behind closed doors. I cry. A lot! I’m exhausted! I’m pushed to my limits with the tantrums and the yelling. I get frustrated, I scream and yell and sometimes I just want to run away for a few hours. I lose my cool. So I cry. So before you tell me I’m a great mother you should know I feel like a complete failure. It’s not what you think. I take long showers because I’m crying and thinking of all the ways I have failed my children in the course of the day. And…
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The Giggles Keep Me Going
Being a pregnant mama to an extremely rambunctious two-year-old is hard! The non-stop crying! The refusing to eat! The climbing everything, but not being able to get himself down!! What’s up with that!!!!!! The constant need to be with you but not wanting to do anything except watch tv or climb on you!? The not wanting to keep his diaper on, but refusing to potty train because pooping in the big boy toilet would be way too easy! The list goes on and on! But the sound of giggles when playing peak-a-boo with daddy, makes it all okay! But wait…more crying! More climbing, more tantrums! More unhappy moments for this…
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More to Love!
When I had my first son, I fell so in love with him I couldn’t imagine loving another child as much. In fact, it scared me thinking about the possibility of having another child, but not loving that child as much. It scared me so much I almost didn’t want another child, but knew my son needed a sibling. I didn’t want him to grow up being lonely or spoiled. Then, I found out I was pregnant with another boy! I wanted a girl this time around since it will more than likely be my last time pregnant, so my emotions took over and I cried for about a week.…
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Let’s Discuss Mental Health
I think mental health is something that is so taboo in today’s society. It’s something that no one wants to talk about and most definitely not admit when they have something going on. But the truth is, with the pandemic and the world we live in today, mental health is something that needs to be addressed on a regular basis. So, I have decided to let you in on my mental health. My constant battle with anxiety. I never had an issue growing up, in fact I never had an issue with anxiety until I became pregnant with my son. And every day since! But my anxiety wasn’t like other…
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Step-Parenting: The Struggle is Real
Being a step parent is not easy and I won’t even try to lie and say it is! It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced in my entire life! And it should be! Well if you ask me that is, I think as step parents we have to prove ourselves worthy and I personally think we should have to! Now let me explain! I came from a family with a step parent so I know a thing or two about it! The only difference is, my step parent came into our lives assuming he deserved our respect, deserved our loyalty, and our love! And because he assumed, he deserved it,…
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The Difference a Pregnancy Can Make
I look down at my growing body and I definitely don’t feel beautiful or gorgeous or even pretty for that matter. I look straight down and see a belly that protrudes way past my solid double D’s. And I see stretch marks all over! Wanna see my feet? I haven’t in at least four months! My face is chubby and oily, they call it “glowing,” but I call it gross! It’s never been this big or this oily! I look at the number on the scale and see a number higher than I’ve ever seen before and I just want to cry! I try on clothes in my closet and…
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The Most Important Things to Know Before Marriage
You ever wonder why the divorce rate is so high nowadays compared to older generations? You see it all the time people who you think are the perfect couple end up making the announcement they are getting a divorce. Or the opposite, people who you honestly think are so different that they won’t last a year last fifty years! I’ve thought about it a lot since I’ve gotten married and even more so before I got married. It’s crazy really, there’s no rhyme or reason for why some get divorced while others stay together, but I think I’ve figured out some contributing factors to why this is happening by the…
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Love At Any Age
I have seen some major heartache in my life but I have also witnessed some even more heartache and nasty breakup from the older generations in my family. And the one thing I have learned from seeing and experiencing it myself is this… There is no right age to find love! And I don’t mean this “short lived” love, I mean true love! Take for instance my uncle, he has been married before, he has had different girlfriends over the years, but 25 years ago he met the one! My Aunt Theresa. And the love you see them share is something I’ve never seen before; growing up was gross to…
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Three Types of Love
Three Loves I saw a post the other day that got me thinking. This post was about the three loves a person has in the course of their life. And this post brought light to the topic of love. So, I thought I’d share my take on the topic. So, to start let me explain the three different types of loves. The first love is the love that most often happens when you are young and you don’t think of it as love and you grow apart or break ties over something silly, but when you get older and look back on it, you realize it was love. The second…
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Pictures = Memories
Isn’t it funny how you see a picture and it brings back a flood of memories? Take for instance the picture above. It was taken in Payette, Idaho, at a park me and my brother spent endless hours at during our childhood. The same park is where my head start building was, where at the age of three I was enrolled in order to learn to speak. Up until then my older brother spoke for me so I didn’t need to do it. But some would say I haven’t shut up since which is okay with me. Because having a voice is the most important thing, I’ve learned from all…
